UNTITLED TO YOU

What does it take to show someone you love them, and really mean it too? Not the type of love that comes with benefits or gifts on the regular but the type of love that doesn't cost. Where you can just be yourself without worry if they will still be there. The kind that makes you worry when they worry, cry when they cry, but most of all feel happiness when they are happy. We sometimes get caught up in jealousy and envy with each other! Wait now truth be told I never knew you could be jealous of the ones you love. I thought that their success was a reflection of hard work and where they came from. I certainly never knew you could be jealous of the one your with and claim is your better half.

This weekend was a test for me I would like to think. I mean think about how many times you tell someone you would do anything for them. All those times you tell someone you have their back no matter what. My test was to prove how loyal I could be to that, and if I really could be the type of women that no matter what sticks by her words and promise. The type of women who would stand by her man no matter what she is told, she sees the beauty in him and his dreams. See it's hard for me to say that I trust whole hearted in someone when you have been let down you often wonder why if you can or should. The truth is everyday I open my eyes a little more and more then the day before. I don't want to miss out on love, happiness, or even just moments of joy because I'm waiting for pain or disappointments.

How far would you go for the one who holds your heart? Even if they give you no guarantee they love you back. Can you devote time to someone who holds your desires even if your not sure all the time your theirs? How long can you wait to hear that they miss you, or care about you when actions just don't seem to show anymore? Can you walk away when your not sure what your walking away from? What if it's a test to see if you'll hold on and be there in the toughest of times? Meanwhile your ready to just walk away and leave them not knowing if one day you can take that back. See I'm a strong women who has cried a lot over foolish things, but wonders if now she is being tested for the realist of things. I mean we all ask God for things, but do we really expect him to do it? However when he does were either in shock he did it or realized we don't or can't handle it. Love it's always between two people but your goals and dreams too. Can you hold on to them when everyone else says that you shouldn't?

My only fear in life is rejection without reason, I mean I can handle being told I'm not the one. Furthermore being told that I'm not ready for what it is I want, but to be left without why or even with room to fix it. I can't handle that I rather lose knowing I did everything in my power to fix it, then not having a chance at all.

"Love is not based on limits or restrictions.

However it's pushed

by the limits of ones devotion and loyalty.

The only restrictions on love is the unwillingness

to be open."

By: Geneva Relf

THE BEAUTY OF HEART

I once heard a man say "I put myself out there once and I can't do it again I guess." My only response to him was " One women doesn't destroy the world, and I thought you could see that." It's not that I didn't understand or even agree with his feelings at one point, but I know that life goes on passed one person! That sometimes we have to be with the worst to appreciate the best were about to receive. There are things you appreciate more the second time around you took for granted the first time. Your wiser to when you need to communicate, support, and just understand the second time around. There will be times when you bump against Mr. & Miss. wrong before you meet the right one. Furthermore we sometimes have the perfect mate sitting in front of us our whole life and never know it. The sad part is most of the time it's too late and that person is tired or holding on to what should be. I'm not saying this is always the case, but sometimes what you need and looking for is closer then you think.

There is nothing on this earth or in this world like being with someone who is your better half. Being with someone who would doing anything to see you smile, and laugh and just to be around you. The idea of being with someone who can see you for who you are without wanting or asking for that to change but to be embraced. I wonder why it's so hard to commit to someone who hasn't hurt you? Why we struggle with the chance to be happy and live in peace if not just for a moment? I understand that once your heart has been broken and you have been mistreated it hard to just put yourself back out there. Furthermore I understand that it's hard to believe and even trust when your waiting for them to do something wrong. The one thing I have learned is that if your eyes are always half open then you only see half of what you can get. If your eyes are always closed they'll never see what you can get. You have to open your eyes and take a chance the worst thing that can happen is noting that time won't heal. We say we don't want to get hurt or that were not ready to be back out there again. However aren't we hurting by missing out on what we could have. The thought of seeing others happy and in like or love and your playing it safe. That's like being the kid picked last every time to play at school, or being that really last picked person for partners in class. No body wants to feel like things are passing them by or that they aren't good enough to in the game we call life.


I say yes it will hurt and yes there will be times when you wish you were single, but then there will be those days when you can't image how you did it before without them. The very thought of them not being around is torture and beyond your thoughts. Even when you think that you can't take anymore and that your not cut out for that kind of relationship. Where you have to lay your feelings on the line and actually care about someone, seems so beyond you. Just hang in there it gets better and trust me you don't want to look back over your life and wonder what could have been.